New Roommate.

Let me start off by saying that things are really going well with the new guy. We seem to get along really well. Things don't seem strained with him like they have with other guys I've dated. With C it was all about sex. He wasn't interested in who I was, as a person. He was just interested in what he could get from me.

With E it was more of a "let's not make the same mistakes we did in the past" thing.

But with JM, it's more of a "enjoy each other's company" thing. It feels more comfortable. I don't feel rushed to make a commitment, I don't feel rushed to jump into bed. There's an easy communication between us that's really nice. And to top it off, he seems to enjoy pampering me. If I want something and he has the money, he'll get it for me without question.

I'm not sure if I know what to do with that, to be honest. LoL.

I don't feel pressured to do stuff I don't want to do, and that's a major plus so far for this 'relationship' that he and I are building.

Anyway, moving along, the ex has been having a yard sale to get rid of everything in his house. JM and I have been helping him out and he's gotten a bit of money. Not quite as much as he would like, mind you, but at least he was able to buy some food. Tis a good thing, I suppose. He has had eviction papers delivered to him, so I guess he wasn't able to pay rent. He's going to do his best to get to Ohio so that he can see his son. From there, I don't know what he's going to do because he hasn't paid his child support in such a long time that they've issued a warrant for his arrest. He says " I'm reduced to having a yard sale". I feel bad for him, but I also don't feel as if it's my job to jump in and pay his bills or make things 'ok' again for him. Which is a good thing.

I haven't spoken to G in a few days; ever since I decided to let JM become a roommate. She didn't seem too happy about my decision, so I haven't really made an effort to call her. I don't want to upset her, being as she's one of the most wonderful people I've ever known, but I also kinda took her advise to heart.

When I called her about the possibility of JM moving in as a roommate, she said some very true stuff. Stuff like, life is short - you have to grab the things that make you happy now, because there might not be a tomorrow to enjoy them. She was right.

So right, in fact, that I let JM move in.

I don't think she realized just how much what she said affected me. I have been in an accident that almost cost me my life. After my recovery I was very 'free spirited' in that I went where I was happiest. I did the things that I could afford to do, but also the things that I wanted to do because I learned that life is short.

Over the years, depression had set in and I had forgotten that lesson. When G said those words to me after her sister's accident it hit me again just how important it is to let those you love know that you love them, and to enjoy life as it is now, without waiting for your wishes to come true.

I remembered that I need to reach out and grab my dreams rather than letting life, and my dreams, pass me by.

That was the deciding factor in the decision to let JM be a roommate. My name alone is on the lease. If JM doesn't work out, I can always kick him out. This is, after all, my place. He is well aware of that.

Things are going well for me now. I'm happy. Tis a good thing.