Changes In Life.

As much as I love my sister, my life is driving me crazy. My youngest sister moved in with me the evening of the 3rd. Since then it's been no-privacy for me.JM absolutley loves the fact that there's family around, he loves having people around, he loves having other people to talk to....... but I feel overwhelmed by a lack of room, a lack of privacy, and a lack of personal space. I feel like T. and her hubby are crowding me.

And it's driving me nuts.

On the up side, JM is happy. He's losing some of that depression which has made me feel like he's pushing me away. I feel more emotionally close to him today than I have felt for about a week.

I also feel like I haven't had enough private time with him to cuddle, kiss, and do all those little affactionate things that I need. Which isn't his fault, really.... it's the situation and it's me. I don't know why I feel that I can't be affectionate around my sister and her man, but I feel that way. PDA issues? Something from my past? I don't know what it is, but part of me feels like I need to lighten up. What is it about my "appearance" that bothers me so much?

Or is it that I feel like T's role model and that I should try to guide her in her own relationship? But why would I feel like that when her relationship is none of my business??

On a more private note, the sex has been wonderful.

There's something different about my relationship with JM since T and JC have moved in, and I'm not sure how I feel about it. Part of it is good. Part of it is questionable.

I know our relationship can survive this and many more changes in our lives. I feel secure in the fact that JM truly loves me and truly wants to make this relationship work. I think my issue stems from my need to finally feel comfortable with myself and who I am on a more physical level.

Funny, but sitting in here (my bedroom) while everyone else is out there feels more comfortable for me than being out there with them. Out there with them I feel crowded and overwhelmed.

Is it an 'another adult in the house' issue? I certainly didn't feel this way when G was around or when a friend comes in for a visit, and I don't feel this way when kids are in the house.... so maybe it's a feeling that I'm losing my control over my house, which comes from having 2 other people, 2 adult people, living here....because it's their house too, now.

Hmmmm.