First Post of the New Year

A movie I watched last night said something that I felt to my very core and goes along with one of my favorite quotes.

"A woman is a creature of the heart." ... "You must speak to her in a language her heart understands." (Or something like that. It's not a direct quote, but it's close enough for now)

The quote is "Seduce my mind and you can have my body, find my soul and I'm yours forever."

My ex once said that it would take a truly good man to not just win my heart, but keep me forever. I'm finding that it's not necessarily that I need a 'truly good man' or even a man who stands out in the crowd. I just need a man who talks to my heart in the language it would understand.

I need a man to find my soul.

Here lately it seems that men are looking quite a bit. E. is determined to sweep me off my feet ... as soon as he gets back from Greely, that is. What I don't understand is why men are looking so hard... it's right there for anyone to see.

It's here, in each post I make; in each carefully typed word. I pour myself into everything I do, including my blogs. I'm a very passionate person so I put everything I am into everything I choose to do.

Including relationships I choose to have, be they friendships, romantic relationships or work relationships.

When I was with my ex, it was the same way. I put everything I had into the 'us' we created only to find out I was the only one putting anything into it. I learned, and I walked away. It's still slightly difficult when he comes around, sometimes. He brings up stuff that's hard to talk about, hard to deal with.

Anyway, there is no specific 'theme' to this post, it's simply a clearing of the mind, a shedding of my need to put down a piece of myself, to share myself with someone so that I don't quite feel so misunderstood or quite so alone in my thoughts.

My Christmas was good. G's family invited me over on Christmas Eve for Christmas dinner and some gift giving. I got one thing that everyone knows I always love - bath soap collections! Bear and Sara got some tennis balls, which they've already tried to tear up by playing tug-of-war.

Last night, New Year's Eve, was very nice for me. I got to talk to a few good friends, some I hadn't heard from in quite a while. I went for a walk and ended up walking way too far, but it was great. I had a few police officers keeping an eye on me - something that always makes me feel better about living in a 'small' place. When I got back home around 12:20 am I called the police department and thanked them and wished them a happy new year. The woman I talked to seemed quite surprised at that. LoL.

Hopefully this new year will find me happier than I have ever been, more fulfilled than I have ever been, and blessed with more friends than I have ever been blessed with.

May the new year bring the same for us all.