Newness.

Life has been rather interesting here lately. Being broke tends to bring out the true nature of everyone around you. And right now, I'm very broke. JM seems to be taking it rather well, considering my brokenness is partially his fault. He's done his best to help the 'broke' situation by bringing in as much money as he can. Not only that, but he's also kept a great attitude about it. He's kept me smiling and laughing, though my depression has been trying to rear it's head here lately.

A friend I had grown irritated with decided to call me 'best friend' and help out as well. She managed to give us a significant amount of money and for that I feel like a huge heel. My pet peeves with this friend is: she never listens (mostly because she's too busy talking) she seems to mooch off everyone around her and she calls all the time wanting to hang out.

I know, petty. Very. Especially considering how much money she just gave me to help me out with my bills. I have, however, learned my lesson.

Things with JM relationship wise are going well. I don't know why, but it seems that things are easier with him around rather than more difficult. The biggest problem I run into is a lack of privacy, which isn't necessarily a bad thing considering my depression issues right now. I do tend to withdraw when I'm depressed, which makes my depression worse. With JM around, I haven't had time to dwell on my issues too much, which doesn't allow things to get worse.

Which is a good thing.

The ex finally got completely moved out and shipped to Ohio. I have mixed feelings about this sometimes, and I think it's why my happy depression is getting worse. I definetly closed a chapter in the book of my life and it's affecting me quite a bit. Having to go thru all the things he left behind was kinda difficult for me, and I ended up crying on JM's shoulder. JM was really good about it. He let me cry on his shoulder for awhile and we had a long talk. He understands exactly where I'm coming from, and it's a good thing.

The newness hasn't worn off, yet. Tis a good thing. I just hope that the newness doesn't wear off between JM and I for a long time.