7th... Follow up.

I don't know why I let things bother me.

After I blogged that, I talked to a friend online for awhile. I feel a little better. Not a whole lot, mind you, but a little. G is so right when she says C isn't worth getting upset over. After all, he didn't exactly do anything that warranted a boyfriend/girlfriend kind of relationship. If anything he did his best to avoid it while giving lip service.

I really have a hard time putting things into perspective sometimes, especially when it comes to interpersonal relationships. I do believe this is because of my childhood, where I wasn't taught how to have decent relationships with my parents at all, and completely avoided friends at school.

My doctor is right when she says I need to see a counselor, but the one she recommended to me is extremely expensive - and I don't have the kind of money needed (even though I have insurance) to see her. She doesn't bill insurance, you have to get reimbursed, and I simply don't have the money necessary to pay her in like that. When I see the doc on my follow up visit, I'm going to ask that she recommend another one, who's not quite as expensive.

Anyway, this weekend was nice for me. I went to G's house on Friday and helped GD on the computer, then just hung out for awhile and gave the dogs a ride. Then Saturday I helped G with her house (they're remodeling) and we went to dinner and shopped a bit.

Tonight I have a slight headache between my left eye, but it's not so bad that I need meds or to call off work. It's more annoying than anything else, so I'm just taking some aspirin and dealing with it. I'm also trying to make a new bedspread using a different kind of yarn and a really hard-to-read pattern.... hopefully I won't get frustrated before I finish.

Things with E and I are going well, I suppose. As well as they can, considering he's going to stay in Greeley. I still don't see how he plans on dating me long distance, but he's convinced he's going to. I also don't know how we're going to resolve our differences regarding children. I want some, he doesn't want any more. How does he think he's going to fix that, and still be my boyfriend??

Anyway, lots of changes, but lots of things stay the same... story of my life.